Feeling Like a Chicken

It's no secret that baby project version 2.1 as been launched.

Although we have not been really active in this project, telling one another that we will just take it easy and let nature takes its place, this however is not the case under the cool and peaceful front.

Every month, I will be thinking that hey, I am pregnant. Every month, I will be like, oh not pregnant and this is really irritating. I'll be thinking maybe I shouldn't dunk down this beer or colour my hair then all at the end I AM NOT MOTHER HEN yet!

I can now imagine the stress of couples who are trying years with people asking of evidence of baby when seriously they don't just fall from the sky or comes in the mail with a mail order.

I want a BABY like NOW!

Then on the other hand, I am feeling a little "chickeny" with the whole thoughts of being pregnant with all the WHAT IFs of the world.

What if I had a miscarriage again?

What if my waterbag burst before the baby gets full term ( seriously, I was on training with this preggy sitting beside me and I was like repeating to myself, water bad dun burst please, not now)

What if I had a pre-term baby again ( I had show at week 35 0 days) and the world has told me 2nd baby always faster than first.

What if the baby wasn't healthy?

What if I put on another 20kg and hey looking at the weight I am starting now, it ain't gonna look too pretty.

All those questions chills me to ice and I become 100% "chickeny" about it.

Perhaps I should stop at 1 maybe.

Anyone who feels like a chicken as well?

I guess this is the perfect time God intervenes. Then HE would make me human again inside out.